I’ve been told I don’t try hard enough
I’ve been told it’s my fault things go wrong
They said I was weird and unfixable, with a sad little laugh
They said I don’t know what it takes at all
I’ve been told the problem lies in me
I’ve been told I’m no good
And I whole heartedly agree, because honestly
A year went by and I achieved nothing
It’s hard to find someone who gets it
Someone who feels what you feel
They might try on your shoes but they won’t fit
As comfortably as they seem to fit you
No matter how many olive branches you extend
Someone needs to be receptive there too
Broken people and broken relationships don’t mend
Not one their own, they need a lot of help too
I’m an introvert when it comes to feelings
That won’t ever change
I wish I could stay in my bubble and find some meaning
Meanwhile I’d let my ramblings comfort me in my head
It’s a new year but nothing feels different to me
I feel detached like I’ve always been
Broken people don’t heal themselves, you see
What’s worse, I feel like I’d never find my clarity