When I started posting on my little corner of the Internet, four years ago – I had zero idea I would still be doing it in 2019. But here we are, and it’s been over four years and I still remember it like it were yesterday. I remember being so excited when the first person followed me. The blog was owned by someone called Umber and they’re no longer active, but I am and I’m shook, as the kids say, that I am still doing this. It’s actually been a huge learning experience.
2015 – Early ’16: The golden years.
I actually made a few friends. When I started, I was Anonymous for the first few months. And then I met people, and we talked and I kind of broke out of my shell. And it felt good. There you go, lesson number one – it’s good to break out of your shell once in a while. It’s good to get out of your comfort zone. And when you do, it becomes almost like a rush. And that, my dear friends, feels amazing.
2016: The plateau.
My blog hit a literal plateau. Everything was steady and I was doing okay. Decent number of posts each week. Between patients, socializing with people, trips, eating way too much, this was when I started using this space as a journal. Yet, I wasn’t happy. And I still needed somewhere to vent. Lesson number two – Even when everything seems okay, it never really is. Which made me realize that not everything you portray online is an actual representation of what you’re really feeling or going through.
2017 – November ’18: The Downward Spiral.
I’ve to say, this was my driest creative spell. Lost all my motivation, got dragged into a ton of social media drama, which resulted in my deleting all my social media accounts and my makeup blog. Oh, and not to mention, having to face trolling and internet bullying that actually took a major toll on my mental health. I decided to go on hiatus. Lesson number three – it’s okay to take a break once in a while. Life doesn’t expect you to keep pushing. Life is kind and beautiful, all you need to do is see it in a different light.
December 2018 – Present: The Comeback.
I missed writing so much I got back into the groove. I also decided that the old username and URL were both slightly depressing so I changed both. This was a mistake since I lost over half my followers, but I also met more new people, and everyone is so amazing. True, I also got my first ever batch of negative/ gross comments but there’s a lot more positives to this. Which is why I’m going to focus on that. Final lesson – The good outweighs the bad.
If you’re reading this, and if you’ve made major changes and if you’ve been around for a while, tell me the story of how your blog has transitioned into what it is today, over the past few years.
And a little post-script here:
I just finished reading my very first BA Paris novel. She’s really good. This particular book, Bring me Back, reminded me a lot of Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. Have you guys read this?